*spills coffee all over laptop, pjs and comforter*
*interrupts new year ~*~inspiration~*~ to try and fix my now acting up trackpad*
(I don’t know what voodoo magic turning off my computer and letting it stand upside down did, but my trackpad now seems to be in the clear. phew.)
OK–let’s try that again.
WELL, here we are! The year two-thousand and eighteen. Despite how tired or overdone or cliché it might be to write a post reflecting on one’s previous year, I find so much value in taking a step back to see how much has changed in just 365 days. I don’t necessarily set “resolutions” each year, but I do try and delineate some goals and intentions for the upcoming months. Since I write them down, it makes for a pretty easy road to reflection–so, why not?
According to last year’s post, it appears that this year we almost identically repeated the same activities that we partook in last year. Whereas last year we watched Interstellar in our jammies, this year it was the Lady Gaga Netflix documentary. Last year we went for the cheapo-deapo $3 Martinelli’s, and this year we “splurged” for an $8 bottle of crappy fake champagne. (Movin’ on up!). Both movies ended approximately 7-10min before midnight, during which we rushed to prepare out bottles of respective, celebratory juice, popped it open at the turn of the new year, and gave each other our little kisses. Both times, I was sick, lol.
It’s curious how I wrote down that 2017 was going to be the year of the dog. Here we are, one year later, cuter, bigger house, and still nowhere near that dog. We’ve definitely made some steps forward in that direction, but as the laws of physics would dictate, we have also taken an equal amount of steps backwards.
Which brings us to last year’s resolutions. Though it took me until literally the final 2 weeks of the year, I finally set up some investments and big people 401Ks. Check. I did indeed pay off my car (which, holy crap, seems like so long ago). I did not, however, pursue my dream of becoming the next great American baker. I ended up relinquishing that hobby for something arguably more worth my time–namely, I moved closer to my “Take 2 full CS/programming courses” goal. In fact, I one-upped myself a bit, and became a full-on programmer, lol.
And, I ended the year with a title bump (no longer Junior over here!). Altogether, not too shabby.
And, then, there were those changes that I never remotely planned or intended on:
For starters, I randomly decided to chop my long hair off. And then I went one step further and decided to blondify myself. I fell in love with the idea of blogging full time, and pretended that I was going to be a successful fashion blogger for a hot second. By giving myself the power and the space to actually try it out (however short-lived), I also allowed myself to realize that it was not for me. (And then quickly became cynical about the overly saturated fashion blogger community but that’s another story, lol). All in all, I’m pretty relieved with that outcome.
We made some meaningful strides in our relationship, and faced some very scary realities about our communication (or, lack thereof) when it came to deep sources of conflict. We finally began talking about our relationship in a mature, albeit painful manner. I hope we continue on that honest and productive path this year. We leveled up our living situation, and now have an adorable little bungalow to ourselves (sidenote: cannot wait to make use of our deck this summer). I made some new friends, and saw some of them leave to bigger pastures. I went to Canada for the first time, made some much needed trips to visit friends, hosted a number of visitors, took a treat yo-self, lone staycation to Seattle, decided I could never ever never settle in Portland because sun-worshipper, and quickly developed amnesia once the summertime weather arrived. Most importantly, I grappled with a whole mess of insecurities about diving into computer science, and pursued it path despite the dozens of questions and demons I felt telling me to run in the opposite direction.
And, now, for the coming year. To be frank, I haven’t given much thought about what I want out of 2018. A better political climate, for one thing, but on a more personal level, it’s a bit hazy this year. Though I feel as if programming is one step closer to what I might want to work in for the rest of my life, I still feel like it falls short of what excites me. If I’m being honest, what I mostly feel this year is eager to get out of the country, and to be traveling once again.
Either way, I suppose I’ll jot some intentions down, for the sake of 2019 Raquel. For 2018, in no particular order, I would like to:
- Finish CS50 (lol);
- Continue to take more online classes, programming or otherwise;
- Take the next step within my company from Data Engineer to Junior Software Engineer;
- Spend more time out of my house: I tend to be quite the cloistered homebody, but we live in such an easy, walkable, and convenient neighborhood, and I would like to take advantage of it. (Plus, something tells me my time in Portland may be cut short sooner than I think, so I’d like to have truly experienced my dear Portland in its entirety). I would like to spend more time getting lost in places around me, rekindling that curiosity that once pervaded my psyche as a naive and eager 23-year old;
- More specifically, more free time studying and writing (and reading) in coffee shops;
- Spend less time on the gram and more time reading actual books;
- Begin to talk concretely about marriage (yikes);
- Begin planning travel to some of my bucket list countries. Also, define bucket list countries, lol;
I guess that’s all for this year. Here’s to 2018!